25 地中海四十八小时(9)
This said, the Canadian withdrew, lea一ving me close to dumbfounded. I had imagined that if it came to this, I would ha一ve time to think about it, to talk it over. My stubborn companion hadn't granted me this courtesy. But after all, what would I ha一ve said to him? Ned Land was right a hundred times over.These were near-ideal circumstances, and he was taking full advantage of them. In my selfish personal interests, could I go back on my word and be responsible for ruining the future lives of my companions? Tomorrow, might not Captain Nemo take us far away from any shore?
说完这话，加拿大人就退出去，让我一人不知所措地呆在房一中；我也想过，机会来了，我可以有时间来考虑，来讨论。但我那一性一情固执的同伴不让我这样做。到底，我还能对他说什么话呢？尼德·兰十分对。他现在要利用的，的确是一个好机会。我可以食言反悔吗？我能为了完全个人的利益，损害我的同伴们的将来吗？我负得了这种责任吗？明天，尼摩船长不是很可以把我们带到离开所有陆地的大海中去吗？
Just then a fairly loud hissing told me that the ballast tanks were filling, and the Nautilus sank beneath the wa一ves of the Atlantic.
这时候，发出相当响的啸声，我晓得船上储水池盛满水了，诺第留斯号潜入大茵洋水底下去了。
I stayed in my stateroom. I wanted to a一void the captain, to hide from his eyes the agitation overwhelming me. What an agonizing day I spent, torn between my desire to regain my free will and my regret at abandoning this marvelous Nautilus, lea一ving my underwater research incomplete! How could I relinquish this ocean-"my own Atlantic," as I liked to call it-without observing its lower strata, without wresting from it the kinds of secrets that had been revealed to me by the seas of the East Indies and the Pacific! I was putting down my novel half read, I was waking up as my dream neared its climax! How painfully the hours passed, as I sometimes envisioned myself safe on shore with my companions, or, despite my better judgment, as I sometimes wished that some unforeseen circumstances would prevent Ned Land from carrying out his plans.
我留在我的房一中。我要躲开船长，使他的眼睛看不到我心中激动的情绪。我就这样度过这很愁闷的一天，一方面想走，恢复我的自一由，另一方面又惋惜，丢开这只神奇的“诺第留斯号，使我的海底研究不能完成！这样离开这海洋，像我喜欢说的，这样离开“我的大西洋”，并没有观察它的最深水层，并没有从它取得印度洋和太平洋曾给我揭露的秘密！我的小说刚翻完第一章就从手中掉下去了，我的梦正在最美好的时候就被打断了！多少苦闷的时间就这样过去，有时看见自己跟同伴们安全逃在陆地上，有时又不顾自己的理一性一，希望有意夕）的机会，阻止尼德·兰的计划不实现！